HALOO NEW BLOG I'M SO EXCITED!!!

After making a couple or more blog and fill them with trash I decided to make a new one fill it with new trashes yeay <3! Nah, I'm joking. This time I wanna make something more with meaning, just some reminder at least to myself about things that's going on with my life. Here goes my first one! and hey welcome to my new blog :D

So, I’ve been cooking meals for my you-know-who for a week and I find it hard to make an affordable meal everyday without making the same menu in a week. The shopping is quite hard too I guess. I’m this super newbie in this part of woman-should-know-how-to-do-it-properly thing. First stuff that I find it hard is the waking up in the morning session. I am a night worker, well I don’t really work at night but I got my good mood to write my thesis, do my trash writing and even clean my room at night. So I do all the good stuff people usually do at day on the night time. And I slept at 3-5 am as a result. Then I tried so hard waking up at 6, washing my face, giving my little boy his breakfast, pet him and off to the market. When I got in the market the confusion came, I didn’t know what to cook for meal. If you don’t know what you will cook then you’ll also not know what to buy. I once starred at the groceries for 15 minutes because I was thinking about the meal I am going to cook but then I started to grab anything that I think will do well in the kitchen. Doing the groceries was easy at my first four days, but not the days after that. I started to realize that I don’t know much cooking, at all. Anyway, after getting my raw materials then I went back to my dorm and started to browse for recipes. Yes, I browse my very easy to do meals just so I won’t get them wrong. When you cook for someone you look after and didn’t want them to go to the bathroom three times a day just to poo then you better look for the recipes. After cooking then of course you should clean the kitchen, prepare the table for two and wait for the man to come and eat together. The eating together and watching him eat your meal is the best part, unless your meal was bad. It feels like your effort has paid off. Haha

Of course cooking the meal was not my only activity. After cooking and stuff I got to clean my boy’s mess, then wash my clothes. I don’t do laundry that much except for clothes that are hard to iron. Then I go to my campus, finishing tiny stuff for graduation which was quite like anger management classes. I’m also in an internship at one of the art event in Jogja so I got to go here and there for the work that was given to me until night. Night came it means I got to go back to my dorm, or I would go to some coffee shop just hanging out with my friends until you-know-who came home. That’s just what my daily routine is, and I feel quite exhausted about that. It makes me wonder, how much strength a woman put to keep up these stuff.

I remember my mom, she was a good house wife although she doesn’t really cook well but she cooks. She was also a ‘single’ mom for about 4 years, in some part of my life she was my dad too. She can do all of those stuff I am having difficulties at, and she has done more than that. She had real children, my sister and I, while I only have a cat and an imaginary husband, the you-know-who guy. Just so you know he really exist but he is not my husband (yet?). She still studies until now, when she’s 56 years old. When I was at 4^th elementary school and I was abroad with my family, she took an English class just so she could keep up with her children development. She sometimes still reads about my homework stuff, and even reading philosophy books. Although she doesn’t work anymore but she still can do gardening, washing and cleaning my house alone, taking care of my sister’s pet and yet she got a serious illness. I keep wondering and I keep being ashamed of my own self because with only those activities with my healthy body I could moan all day but not my mom.

Ah that’s it for now. Catch you later J

Love Kikia